Motivation and merits
Let us talk clear. I know that when I do something, I do it great. But just when I really wanna do it, and I feel motivated about it. So, the problem stays at motivation. And that is not something that you can get from someone, or from something. The most cases, it's comes from yourself. So let's find out why I do feel unmotivated for everything, even for most things I love. I think, that even if I'm optimistic most of the time, somehow, I have this feeling, that as much as I do, it would never be enough. It feels, like nothing is worth, because somehow, everything would go to hell. I feel that it would not make a big difference. That my life is not gonna change that much, and that It doesn't matter what I try, I will never be happy. Because I need to start to apreciate what I already did, to be able to apreciate what I could get if I work for it. Somehow I feel that I'm not able to get what I want. I guess, this is just the next ste