Family...There is only one

I'm not really used to miss the family. I always was (and still I am) quite independent of the family. Of course It's not that I don't apreciate them enough, but I know that I have to live my own life, and they cannot do everything for me. I have to work on me in my own way.

But... after a few months living alone, in some another country, really far away from home, you cannot avoid to miss them... a lot.

Because even If they are not the perfect family, I love them, and I miss them. And I know, that they will be there always when I will need it.

I used to think that the family is just that... family! And I was used to think that I'm more connected to friends, because they understand your situation better, they think more like you...

But that's not true. After so much time, and meeting so many diferent people, I realised that the friends come and go, that a few of them will stay next to you (the best one's) and most important: they will never replace the family.

With your family you can be, the most of the times, yourself. They know how you are, how different you are and how “special” you are.

You cannot count 100% with friends because they are living their own lifes, personal circunstances, personal feelings, personal thoughts.... and the most of them will not apreciate you as much as your family does it.

Of course the best-best friends get to know you enought for apreciating you, but It's not the normal situation.

The true is that even the best friends, they have own life and feelings, and even problems and wishes. It's not fair to expect from them to be perfects. Nowadays, if you will find people who are just good for you, you should feel lucky.

Because I'm not perfect, so I cannot expect from friends to be perfect.

Anyway, the family is good, but for too much time. I mean, that in my situation, they 're used to be really modest and not ostentative. Right now, I'm living a complicated situation and I need to be proud of myself and demonstrate it me. I need to get stronger, sure of myself. And I know that exactly I was already beeing really sure of myself and strong, but sometimes when I'm alone, I have too much doubts. I have to work on my alone side, getting close to myself, to my feelings, understanding me better.

But what family gives you and has no price is: free love!!!! Free love!!! Kostenlos!! If you really need them, they will be there for you. I can count always with them, that's the diference.

I hope that friends as family will not take this post wrong, because I think It's beautifull though, to realise about the importance of the family in my life.

However, the friends are having fun and living every kind of crazy situations with you. And the good friends, the best friends, become one most important part of your life.

Thanks family for beeing there and making me feel better when I really needed. Thanks friends for making me feel good everyday.

G'night!